I find myself wanting to go back. Back to the days when I was pregnant and full of joy.. peacefully & innocently going through life just waiting on Preston to arrive. Completely unaware of the danger that lurked ahead. I find myself wanting to go back to the days when all I was worried about was which pacifier he was…
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Preston, is that you? I wonder if it was you that sent the breeze. I wonder if it was you in the sway of the trees. I wonder if it was you soaring high up in the sky. I wonder if it was you.. the fluttering yellow butterfly. I wonder if you get sad when you see me cry, or…
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“You’re not alone for I am hereLet me wipe away your every tearMy love, I’ve never left your sideI have seen you through the darkest nightAnd I’m the One who’s loved you all your lifeAll your lifeFaithful and true foreverMy love will carry you” I wish I could say I found these words. That I was looking for a nice…
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I smiled today. Actually, I smiled, laughed & even enjoyed a glass of champagne with my bestie. I immediately felt a little guilty. It was the closest I have felt like “me” since Preston passed. Now, (in my “after” life) every time I laugh or smile I stop & think about how I’m laughing or smiling. My mind immediately thinks…
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Yesterday was nothing like I planned. I initially wanted to sleep through the day, but I’m glad I didn’t. For the first few days after Preston passed I couldn’t bear to open my eyes because I knew that would mean I would have to face my new reality. But as much as I wish it weren’t, this IS my reality….
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