I’ve been journaling a lot lately. For me, journaling is similar to photography because it captures a moment in time that would otherwise pass you by. I read things that I wrote in my before life, and for a moment it took me back to the innocence and joy I once had. I also read what I wrote in the days following Prestons death, and I can feel the sadness and resentment through my words. I’m grateful for how far God has carried me these past almost 6 months. I’m grateful for the moments of joy and peace, and I’m especially grateful for all the signs that Him & Preston continue to send me (like the 9 rainbows I’ve seen in the past 2 months!) I stumbled upon this journal entry I wrote in July and I thought I would share here incase someone else needs to hear it to..
Just a friendly reminder that you are NOT alone. Whatever it is you are going through right now is not the end. There is so much life ahead for you. All you have to do is decide that you are not going to stay stuck where you are. You are not going to always be sad, and you also won’t always be happy. But you can always have hope. You always have tomorrow to start again. Today may not have looked like you thought it would and you may be thinking that no one cares, but I can promise you they do, and more importantly – God does.
God never promised days without pain but he did promise that He will be with us in the pain. I like to think of Him tangibly sitting next to me, wiping away my tears and saving each one. That is what He is doing. It will take time, but you will get through this. You are NOT ALONE.
God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, nor sun without rain… but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.